Just Call Me Carrie Bradshaw

Today I realized for the first time that I was truly done with one of my friends. Freshman year she was a very good friend, we were joined at the hip. I feel like, in the first semester of college you make practice friends. And then as college goes on you become close to the people you really connect with. Things have just . . . changed. Things that we can't reverse or undo, and definitely can't make better. I've only really felt that way once, and it was so awful I had hoped that I would never feel that way again. I hate feeling like I can't trust her, that I don't feel safe around her. I worry that I make her feel unwelcome and put-upon in her own home. I've felt that way and I would never want to make someone feel that way. When is it too soon to give up on someone?

Worst of all, I feel like a bad judge of character.

On a lighter note, only 4 days till I come home and I can't wait!

So, this whole 395 thing . . .

It's making me want to pull my hair out. Well, that among other things. My rough draft is due tomorrow, and I'm on the 13th page, which is good. However, I still need to cover two parts of the body of the paper, a vast majority of which I haven't actually read my research. I also have to analyze my primary sources now, which I'm really really bad at.

Can't wait til Thanksgiving. the end.

Shine on our Wandering Kind

Bad things about this past semester:

+History 395 class kicking my ass
+finding a place to live
+running out of milk for my instant breakfast
+erratic weather
+my hair growing out into that funny awkward stage
+no $$
+living in a tension-filled jack-in-the-box that smells like a bar

Awesome things about this past semester:

+my sociology class
+my early england class
+my schedule for next semester (evolution in victorian society? sweeet!)
+great conversations
+good movies/music
+getting fantastically drunk on Halloween, dressed up as a werewolf
+watching corpse bride with my boyfriend the next day b/c i was too sick to go out again
+its almost over